you don’t have to make a difference

…you are the difference You don’t have to make a difference — you are the difference.Each atom of your being plays houseand home, swapping in and outand no one ever stays, but the changeis what makes it all worthwhile. You are the change, whether you make the change or not.

hey friend, a letter on my birthday

hey friend, a letter on my birthday

hey friend, i hope this missive finds you well and good inside, or pensive, in recovery, or getting better all the time — i just hope this finds you at all. i believe these are the state we always are in life, we are either pensive, in recovery or both. so i also hope you get something out of […]

you’re at it again

you’re at it again

My skin crawlsmy face fallsmy heart shrinks;You’re at it again. Your voice unheardyour tales unreadthe laughs unshared;You’re at it again. Shame floods my beingdarkness veils my worlddoubts storm my heart;You’re at it again. I beg and hagglecoax and seduce;How could yoube at it again?! The eyes have bled,the heart has cried,the soul has echoed…Enough. I […]

unreal boys love like men

unreal boys love like men

I’m not a real boy;I am flighty, honest,lacking in manly wiles. ButI love like a man.Fiercely, sacrificially,open, fragile.jealously,possessively. Make me your all and only.Hanging on by chewed-up fingernails,hoping against hope,a deer caught in headlights. Butthere is only so muchmy mortal heart can take. I love like a man.